stuck in limbo and no one is helping like they say they can

when you wake up in the mornings with a pounding in your chest
and at first it’s inexplicable but then you come to the real conclusion
when you convince yourself you’re just freezing
but no amount of blankets can make your bones stop shaking
when your vision is blurred, although you don’t know what that means
but a quick google search can confirm any wonder
when the people who need to respond to emails simply don’t
when all i ever want is to sleep or for something to change -
i’ve been having a very hard time