life has been weird. things have been strange. people have been great. people have been quiet. people have told me things. people have become broken. people were always broken. things have been different. things have been - something.
there was a time when i thought
that knowledge meant power,
when it meant feeling enlightened -
amazed, excited, freed.
there was a time when i didn’t know
what a panic attack was
or that my friends could cry so hard.
there are times when i notice
how thin my skin really is,
or how often my mind wanders.
there are times when alone is good,
and times when alone
can throw the silence too far.
there was a time without all this -
not happiness, but ignorance.